Childlike Faith

San Francisco is starting to feel more and more like home each and everyday that passes. 


This past evening we did an event called, Expressions. This was a time to talk to God, pray, read the bible or talk with people about their faith and just be with one another. At the beginning, one of our leaders said, "We are all in different stages in our walks with God, some of us are in love with God and some of us just like God." This got me thinking, am I truly in love with God? To be perfectly honest, no, I am not. I don't put enough of me into the relationship, if I did love him, I would want to invest all my time in him. As this summer continues, I want to fall in love with God, I want to spend time in his word, hearing what he has to say to me, listening, and just being still; allowing him to do what he wants with my life, giving it all to him. 


My very close friend & leader asked to wash my feet during Expressions, I told her she could and we talked about hearing God's voice. She told me a story about a miner that went into a cave, and picked up a dirty looking muddy clump, he took it to a fire and all the dirt and mud started to wash away, and what was left? Pure gold, God sees us as the pure gold that we truly are inside, but the world sees us with all of our sins, dirty and destroyed. But in order for us to be closer to God, we will have to go through the fire, sometimes it is going to have to burn and things will get tough, and we will feel hurt, but we have to do it, for God, we will have to give up things in our temporary home (this world), for eternal life with him.


Brittni and myself kept talking, I have been frustrated lately with hearing God's voice, so we did a little exercise. We both closed our eyes, she prayed for us, then we opened our eyes and the first thing that caught my eye was the cross laying on the floor, and I heard "I died for you..." I told Brittni that this happened and she said "That's exactly what happened to me." That was God, I got this big grin on my face, because I felt like something truly amazing just happened. A minute later, Steve sang "It is finished..." I looked at Brittni with awe and said "Did he really say that?!" "You better believe it"


God is talking to me, Steve told us the other day that we all need to have Childlike Faith.... I have exactly that, I am like a child, just soaking up all this information that I am receiving. We all need to be like that, if that's in a small town of 10,000 or a city of 800,000, we just have to be willing to hear him.


I know that this summer is going to be a great experience for me. If it were up to me I wouldn't have come here, I would have rather stayed home where I have a loving family & boyfriend that love me to death, it would have been the safe, comfortable thing to do, but I had to be obedient to God, he wanted me to come to San Francisco.


By the way, Katya & I went to the San Francisco Giants game this afternoon, they got slaughtered by the Cincinnati Reds 10-2. But, the weather was beautiful and we had such a blast, we are going to go to more games, and buy Giants gear, so it looks like we truly live here and aren't tourists, we also went to the Cheesecake Factory on top of Macy's in Union Square, it was so special :)


Tessa