Hot or Cold

There aren't words to describe the feelings I have had this week, the experiences I have been through & the people and kids I have met, definitely blown me away.

On Monday, I didn't know what to expect with the groups, if they would be fun, open, bold enough to go out on the streets & pray for others, I was taken back when Tuesday came & we went on the prayer station and all the kids went out and were so bold, I was so proud. I grew close to three specific kids, which I guess would be considered my favourites. 

One incredible kid stood out to me this week, a boy, about the age of 14. At the beginning of the week, he just caught my eye and for a great reason too. I hung out with his group of friends throughout the week, playing pool, (beating him) over lunch & dinner, just out and about. As the week went on, I got so attached to him, if we were all in a group, he would be the first person I would look for, I would want to talk to him. Last night, Thursday, we had cry night, which is a time of reflection of the week, at this time usually the kids reflect their lives, and it's a big cry fest. At the beginning of the night, I was just reading my bible, I had talked to a few girls & prayed with them, but I knew I had to go speak to this kid, so when he was alone I quickly grabbed him, and asked him how he was, he told me he was okay, but didn't get into any detail. I prayed with him & his friend then, but left right aways... After we had finished the night I was looking around the room for him, and I saw him huddled up in the corner of the couch in the far back of the room, a girl from his group had told me that he had been crying for the past hour. I went up to him and asked him what was up.... He opened his heart to me, he told me how his grandmother had past away a year ago and that was one of his closest loves, he thought about her everyday and didn't know how to handle it, he was crying. I think that is so amazing, for a boy, 14 years old, to be able to open up to me, a girl, 19 years old. My heart broke for him, I started to tear up, but after a few minutes of him talking they kicked us out of the room, and told us we had to go back to base. When we got to the base, I asked him if he would like to talk and he said he was going to go lay down. "You are a great guy, Ryan." I told him... and as he was opening the door, he turned to me and said "And you are a great person." 

I will always have him in my thoughts & prayers, throughout this summer, and after. He stole a piece of my heart, he had a piece of Jesus that I needed to see, and I had a piece of Jesus that he needed to see, and we both saw.

Today, during worship, Steve talked about being on fire for God. He told us, we cannot be luke warm, we either have to be hot or cold. That got me thinking, I strongly believe that the majority of people in Winkler, are luke warm christians. We say we are christians, but we don't truly walk out our faith. I was a luke warm christian, but I hope with this experience I will be able to say that, that is in the past, and I want to be on fire for God. We need to allow God to come into our lives, we need to be like sponges to him, soak him up. We need to realize that it is God's plan in life that we need to live, not our own. We need to give our lives to God. So my question for you is... are you hot, cold or luke warm? 


I have so many more incredible stories, that I will have to write about this weekend, God has changed lives this weekend, and I got to be involved in that, I got to be God's ambassador and help change people, help mold people into the women & men they are chosen to be. God is so good.